This year, it is once again my privilege to participate in the celebration of the Advent Season with my church family.
The story that God has prompted me to write will appear here on my blog each Monday this month. I am thrilled to be able to share these writings with you and I hope the story will be a blessing to you and your families this season. The story is a continuing tale that will take us through a contemporary application of the biblical truth of Christmas
Here are the links for the first three parts of the story:
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
With a Courageous Heart,
~~Robin
“You’re meant for so much more.” Mary Beth’s words echoed in
his head as Izzy sat in the back row of chairs. A month ago he’d never imagined
that Christmas Eve would find him sitting here, in a church service, in a shelter
for teenage boys. Crazy, but yep, here he was.
Juan, the preacher he’d met on
Black Friday, had invited him to stop by when Izzy had called him to try and
meet up. He had questions and something told him that Juan would be able to
answer them. Juan was leading the group in worship at the moment. He had a warm
tone to his voice that blended with his acoustic guitar and had the attention of
the entire group of boys in the room.
After meeting his sister last week over coffee, Izzy tried
to ignore the nagging irritation he’d felt when she called him out about the
life he’d been living. As much as he wanted to be angry with her, to deny the
truth of what she’d said, he couldn’t, because she was right.
He had been
running, and he was tired. Tired of throwing himself into his job, working
crazy hours and volunteering for every assignment that would put another notch
in his resume belt. Tired of filling his free time with ball games, workouts at
the gym or watching ESPN on his 60” flat screen.
His friends were all casual
acquaintances, he was close with no one- it was easier that way. Izzy didn’t like
attachment – no chance of being hurt or left behind when you didn’t let anyone
into your life to begin with. He’d built a solid wall around his heart and the
only chink in the brickwork was Mary Beth and her family. This week he’d finally
realized that he was lonely, and even his relationship with his sister couldn’t
fill that empty spot. He’d tried to deny that too, but the young boy that was
still inside him somewhere was crying out for something solid to count on. The
kind of solid ground and bonds that he’d known with his parents and his boyhood
friends, but that was so long ago and he’d buried those memories so deep he’d
almost forgotten what it had felt like.
What was it that Mary Beth had said? That God was the Father
to the Fatherless? If that was true, then that included him too, didn’t it? And
this roomful of boys, right? Izzy began to wonder what their stories were. Where did they all come from? What had happened
to them? Why were they here tonight? He’d
been fortunate, he knew, there were relatives who’d taken him in and cared for
him until Mary Beth graduated college and married Joe. By then, he was a
college student himself and home was whatever dorm he was assigned each
year.
Juan’s firm baritone voice suddenly jarred him out of his
thoughts as he began to speak to the assembled boys. He pulled out his Bible
and read from it, beginning in John chapter 1. Izzy followed along on the app
on his iPhone as Juan read, drawing out the story, his voice painting a picture
with each word he spoke.
“In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word
was God.” Izzy knew “the Word” meant Jesus, something from Sunday
School had stuck with him after all, and he felt a slight relief that the phrasing
didn’t puzzle him. “the Word was God.” Hmmph. Jesus was God. He used to believe
that, right?
Juan continued to read, “In him was life, and the life was the light
of men. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it.”
That struck a chord with Izzy, there was darkness all around him, every day. In
his job, he was surrounded by the ugly, the hurting. Criminals and victims were
what he reported on, there were rarely any good news stories and it had been so
easy to become cynical. But listening to Juan read these verses, it was clear
that the dark things don’t win out. “the darkness has not overcome it.” If he still believed that anyway. Izzy’s
mind was racing as Juan read on: “He was in the world, and the world was made
through him, yet the world did not know him. He came to his own, and his own
people did not receive him.”
That’s actually pretty heartbreaking, Izzy mused. It’s clear
from the text that Jesus had created the world and yet when he came to be with
the people he’d created, they’d rejected him. That had to have hurt, had to
have caused him to feel lonely, at least you’d think so. Was that even possible
for a man who claimed to be God’s son? Izzy didn’t ever let anyone get close
enough to him to reject him, but he sure knew how being lonely felt and it
hurt, a lot.
He looked up as the tone of Juan’s voice changed and to his
surprise what he heard next shattered any defensiveness Izzy had left. “But
to all who did receive him, who believed in his name, he gave the right to
become children of God, children who were born not of blood, nor of the
will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God.”
That’s what Mary Beth had meant. Father to the fatherless. She
believes in Jesus and she has a Father. And so could he. It all made sense to
him now. He didn’t have to be alone. He wasn’t abandoned. There was a Father
who loved him, if he would only believe in His son Jesus. In that moment Izzy
knew he couldn’t run anymore. He had a choice to make. He could reject Jesus
and continue living the life that he’d dreamed, and let’s face it, that really
wasn’t all he’d made it out to be. Or, he could just let go. If it were really
true that God had a plan and a purpose for his miserable life, then it had to
be better than what he had now.
Izzy stared at the screen on his phone for a minute as hot
tears rolled slowly down his face. He put it in his pocket then, eliminating
the distraction.
Staring down at the floor , he began to speak quietly, not
knowing what else to do. “Um, Jesus, I’m not sure what to say, but if you’re
God, you probably already know what it is anyway. Listen, uh, I’m not sure how
all this works, but I guess I can’t run from you anymore. I need You. I’ve made
a mess of my life trying to do it all on my own and I’ve been pretty angry at
you for a long time. I’m tired, and I’m sorry. I’m tired of being angry and I’m
tired of being alone.
Can you forgive me?
Can you fix it? Fix me?
God, please
be my Father. I want to be your child.
I
don’t want to live this way anymore.”
As he finished, Izzy heard the soft chords of Juan’s guitar
in the front of the room again. It was a carol he remembered from going to
church with his parents all those years ago and as the familiar notes filled
the room, he felt lighter than he had in a very long time. The cynical,
hardened reporter hadn’t believed in miracles since he couldn’t remember when,
but tonight, he knew that he was one. Born of God. Christmas would never be the
same.